To my Joshua…
As the only mother you will ever have, and honored and so blessed you were the first one to call me mommy, my heart of plans didn’t turn out like I planned….
I planned Joshie Pie on seeing you after work on September 25, 2015.
I planned on spending many more special years with you, and having you forever in my life.
I planned on watching many more NBA finals with you.
I planned on watching you have more children like you wanted.
I planned on enjoying many more years of watching you be the amazing father to your beautiful, precious princess Chloe; hearing about you tearing up as you walked her into her first day of kindergarten; hearing your anxiety as she started driving on her own; listening to your protective instincts kick in as she began dating; attending and celebrating with you her milestones in life; tearfully and joyfully watching you walk her down the aisle one day, beaming with a smile as I watched your father-daughter dance with her.
I planned on being a part of the proud moment when you became a grandpa, holding that precious bundle of joy and creation of life in your own arms.
I planned on watching you build and grow your own life and family, making so many more precious memories with them.
I planned on watching you and Jake continue to be everlasting brothers, supporting and celebrating each other’s dreams, watching out for each other, and loving each other through everything in life.
I planned on basking in proudness as you achieved firefighting and EMT school.
I planned on so many more family outings and fun vacations with you.
I planned on always seeing you right there by your dads side helping him and eagerly learning from him.
I planned on excitedly helping you and dad build your own home, and excitedly watching you and Alisha customize, design, and decorate it.
I planned on always knowing I had so many more years of loving you, hugging you, talking to you, and living life with you.
I planned on every day seeing those big, beautiful blue eyes; your contagious signature smile melting my heart; and your joyful laughter filling my heart with endless waves of love.
I planned on you holding my hand while I took my last breath of life here on the earth.
I planned on you alongside Jake carrying on our family legacy.
Joshie Pie….my heart will never be the same without precious YOU!
I will forever learn so much more from you than you probably ever learned from me.
You Joshua are a part of the great cloud of witnesses (Hebrews 12) cheering us on; praying for us and our healing; teaching us how to live life again; love deeper; breathe, smile, and laugh again.
Because I am seated in Heavenly places (Ephesians 2) and so are you Joshua…you’re presence is here with us on earth.
And one day soon….Gods plan will be for us to be together in paradise, where you are already enjoying dancing with our King Jesus.
I love you forever and always Joshie Pie ~ Love Mom