It hurts beyond measure and beyond what any words can describe losing a child or loved one, and still hurts beyond measure missing them every day!
I smile through the agonizing pain.
I laugh through the difficult struggles.
I live with an undesired different song than the beautiful original.
I love from my Joshie Pie telling me to keep my heart open to love.
I talk in sprinkles but the words seem to fall onto the hearts of others.
I’m learning to bring in newness when unwanted.
I’m walking into the new path of colorful creations my Joshie Pie is painting for me.
I sit in questioning the A-Z’s of life, not really gaining many answers.
I walk by faith while recovering from the blazing blisters on my heart.
I believe in a God who I don’t understand, but trust Him.
One breath, one step, one moment at a time…I am getting there.
And celebrating my extraordinary Jacob’s 21st birthday today…helps me too in so many ways in getting there.
Josh…I so wish you could be here celebrating Jake’s milestone birthday with him…he misses you so bad.
We love you forever Joshie Pie.