I know millions of people around the world celebrate and welcome a new year kissing their loved ones at midnight; cheerfully making toasts; setting new goals; and making plans to reach those goals.
I know so many others suffer with hurting, painful, broken, and sad hearts…wondering what life will even look in a year.
I know searching deep my own heart and listening to it, led me into discovering just what I do know.
I know my name, my roots, and where I came from.
I know I am loved.
I know my gifts and I use them.
I know my heart and I listen to it.
I know who my God is.
I know I make mistakes and learn from them.
I know how to celebrate my inner, personal accomplishments.
I know pain, brokenness, and rejection and still live life.
I sometimes feel broken but still beautiful.
I sometimes get bruised but still blossom.
I know I am far from perfect but I serve a perfect God.
I know I miss my Joshua and Gracie.
I know I love my Mark, Jacob, and Chloe; and their love I keep deep in my heart.
I know I will one day reach my final destiny.
I know I live with shame, guilt, and regret and can live in the past and stay stuck; or forgive myself to keep living forward.
I know I sometimes fear and sometimes I am fearless.
I know I sometimes am very quiet and other times roar like a lion.
I know I sometimes am scared and other times I’m brave.
I know I am on my own path that no one else can travel.
I know I walk into the unknown with faith and sometimes fall, but get back up again.
I know I’ve had to choose to walk away from the people who never choose to give back to my life what I have so given to theirs.
I know I crash and burn at times and try again in different ways.
I know failing time and time again helps me walk into my successes.
I know all my hurts, wrongs, and wickedness of others help me gain life’s great wisdom.
I know my heart and life are meant to be shared and gifted with others.
I know I choose to walk away from people who control, lie, degrade, and deceit.
I know certain people try and put me down; and I know I listen to my own heart that says I am of great worth.
I know I can choose to gain the world’s treasures or store up my treasures in Heaven.
I know each day I walk more and more into my true and amazing identity.
I know I can embrace each new year with God right beside me, walking hand-in-hand and squeezing it tight in times of uncertainty.